Borderline personality disorder, my episode yesterday and gel douche!
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July 7, 2013
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July 7, 2013
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“gel douche” means “shower gel” in French :p
You’re not you’re disorder. I’m a nice guy, too, but when I go hypomanic I become extremely irritable and just mean. And I can’t explain it or control it. So, I empathize when you say the you don’t know why you’re “so angry.” These videos do help me, so just know that. Cheers, mate. And yes, “gel douche” is funny xD
It’s always made me laugh.
Out of all the things that could have made me laugh, that did. I just glanced at it quickly through the water and then it hit me. I suddenly felt like a little boy trying to hold his laugh in an inappropriate situation. I’m actually so over these fluctuating emotions, I realize more and more each day how much touch I have lost with myself and reality in just 7 years.
Right now, I’m doing pretty okay. Yeah, if I look at this recording now I’m cringing :/ But I’m so so scared of medication. My personality is so fragile that 1 little shift can cause me to do things that I would under normal circumstances barely have control over.
If the medication makes me unable to control myself, I might end up worse off than before. I think I should look into therapy, I’m actually scared :/ So many things ahead in the next few weeks.
LOL, good video. I hope you are doing ok. I could tell by your appearance that you seemed sort of preoccupied by anxiety and/or disturbed by your thoughts. Luckily you will be getting some treatment although you are not sure exactly when.